About E.D Beauty Influence

The Positive That Came From Cancer-My Story

Introduction:   In the summer of 2017, my life changed. I always saw information about breast cancer awareness. I saw the inspirational post on facebook by breast cancer survivors. Never did I think that one day I would be praying to survive breast cancer myself.

The Emotions & Shock of It All:   I was laying in bed on my back examing my breast for firmness because I was dieting and exercising regularly (I was on a quest to control my diabetes) I lost some weight and in my head, I was at the age where losing weight could mean gaining saggy boobies. While I was squeezing my right breast I felt something strange a lump the size of a silver half dollar. I felt the left breast and then the right breast again to compare the two and sure enough, my right breast had a lump that the left one didn't have and I panicked. Everything that I could remember hearing about breast cancer awareness over the years came rushing to my mind. I knew that having a lump in my breast at 41 was something that had to be checked out right away. I didn't tell  anyone because I didn't want to scare them, especially if I was just overreacting. 

I made my doctor appointment, did my mammogram, that lead to a biopsy of the lump and the lymph nodes under my right arm, that lead to what I feared. The doctor called and told me that I had stage 2 breast cancer. At that moment  I saw my whole life flash before my eyes. I was so scared. After I got off the phone with the doctor I just sat there for hours thinking.  Stage 2 breast cancer? What did that mean? Am I going to die and if so how long did I have to live and comfort/console my children and grandbabies, my mom, my siblings, my extended family, and my sister-friend?  How was I going to explain this to them when I really didn't understand myself what I was going through?  It's very ironic that when the possibility of death confronts you, you began to think about how much your presence means to your loved ones and how you leaving them would hurt them.

Why I chose the subtitle of this blog

Moving Forward

Now, I've had my lumpectomy and my port is in. I'm two months into chemo; I've lost my eyebrows, lashes, and I'm completely bald. Consequently, I started feeling unattractive and depressed. 

I understood that this state of mind was not going to help me get through everything I had to endure in the next coming months. So I was faced with a choice. Allow my negative thoughts to consume me and become a victim of cancer mentally and physically or fight back by never allowing myself to look like I was battling cancer. 

I chose the latter. Everyday I purposed to look like the best version of myself. 

I started to beautify myself. I started watching YouTube videos on how to apply make-up. Honestly, I'm still learning and trying new things. My lace front wigs made me feel my kind of beautiful. I wore my lace front in the house, to bed. I literally never took them off the whole time I was doing chemo, only to change from one wig to the next. I never wanted to look at myself, looking physically sick. This is the way I kept myself strong and able to fight every day. The chemo took me through it physically and I couldn't change that. But I was determined to not look sick. 

Every time I went to my chemo visits my doctor would say "you're fooling everyone again, hmmm."  I know that what people say about you shouldn't have any barring on how you feel about yourself but that statement made me feel like I was winning my fight. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         

E.D Beauty Influence Is Born

While I was going through my battle with cancer I realized just how much women connect how we feel on the inside about ourselves, to what we look like on the outside. Beautifying myself, helped me to mentally fight breast cancer. So, I developed a desire to help other women cater to themselves but on a bigger scale. I just needed to be able to build a platform that supplied merchandise and products that women would feel comfortable making their one-stop shop for the majority of their beauty needs from head to toe.

My vision for E.D Beauty Influence is to help women of all races online and locally build or maintain confidence and self-esteem by building a community of women that focus on self-love. We as mothers and wives always put everyone else first and then feel guilty for taking time to cater to the things that make us happy. I want to influence women to take the time to do the things that enhance their total beauty through health and wellness, cosmetics, bath and body, clothes, jewelry, virgin hair extensions and more. Therefore, I did research to find a virgin hair vendor with quality hair that could drop ship to my potential customers that order through my online hair store Essie's Virgin Tresses. Then I looked for a direct sales company that focused on products for women. But, I wanted the company to be a company that I could trust and that had longevity. I could think of no better company then Avon to help E.D Beauty Influence bring quality products at an affordable price to the community of women I wanted to connect with.  I want E. D Beauty Influence to be the company that helps women look as good as we make them feel. That's what taking the time to beautify myself did for me while I was fighting breast cancer.  If you got this far, I really appreciate you taking the time to read my story.

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